I can do this!!!

Well, as you can see, I am not much of a blogger. May 16th of 2013 and today is Jan 31, 2017!!!

Just a quick catch up.. the end of that May, we found a place to rent and the end of June, moved to Gallup, NM. Fast forward to Dec 2014, my husband was offered a position in Albuquerque and accepted; then turned it down because the position would be dissolved in the new contract. April of 2015, they worked it out and he accepted a different position in Albuquerque and we spend April - July looking for somewhere to rent in Abq that would except large pets, we finally found a place an moved in August.

The reason, I am such a terrible Blogger, is while I am working a part time or full time job, I just don't sit down to a laptop... I use my phone to get on facebook, and I spend time on Pinterest. I just am not focused enough to sit down at type out what is going on, I don't even take time to write in a diary!

SO!!! Why have a started this Journey again???  Well, actually, I started it last August, sort of! See last August, WE BOUGHT A HOUSE!!! and I quit working.. I retired so to speak... and tomorrow, I am going to TRY and truly start a New Journey... One of self!  which is long overdue!  I am going to do my best to challenge myself to complete a 30 day challenge that a classmate of mine started and I joined. I am going to do my best to challenge myself to work on things that I feel will make my marriage better. I read Secrets of a Fascinating womanhood, and it has helped me understand some things about my husband that I had be mentally banging my head on a brick wall about!

I also want to work on my personal desires and goals for my midlife crisis! More about that tomorrow :)
Until then, God Bless and have a blessed day!!

Continued Journey

Well, September of 2011 was little more than a few days ago.. but again I find the need to document what is going on in life.. and actually today is Day 1 of a  NEW "New Journey"

Today, my husband started his new job, 327 miles away from where we currently live.

Guess you know what I have got to start doing.. packing...

Until we find a place to move into, he will be staying in a hotel, and one of us will be driving back and forth on weekends.. (probably me since he has been driving that route every week for 14 months as his normal job duty)

This New Journey is one, that I was never prepared for, but funny thing is ... If you go back to the Entry on October 26th of 2009..God's Timing 
It is what I prayed for and not only that but it is something that I had continued to practice what I preached.. which I honestly believe is what opened this "New" door. 

Last month, I happened upon a person that was down on her luck and had been "kicked" out of friends house and she has nowhere to go. I volunteered my couch, which she hesitantly accepted, but gratefully used for about a month. During her month stay, at times, I wondered  "WHY ME??" and was this some test I needed to pass or was I suppose to learn something from this.. (she tried my patience)  I decided to just pray for her, and I will continue to do so. It was while she was staying with us that an incredible job opportunity opened up for my husband, which he accepted, and now our Journey begins..
My Day 1, his first day on the job up in Gallup..My day here was finding a new doctor for my son.. but I didn't get anything accomplished for myself.. other than starting weight is 154.6 !!! 10 lbs lost!!! oh, when I hit 150... I will pass out and hit the ground!!

So, lets see what God has planned for us!! (Lord, I am overwhelmed!!!)

Surgery

So much has happened since my last post and to be quite honest Aug 30th was probably my last normal day..

I hesitate to write this because well it is gross.. but I SO wish I had figured things out before it got out of hand.. PRIDE comes before the fall... SO TRUE!!!..

I was late this past month with my Issue and had hoped to be pregnant..but test came back negative :( Then I started, so I thought possibly a miscarriage.. I had one 5 yrs ago the end of August..my period was a little heaver than normal but I contributed that to the possible miscarriage.. BOY was I wrong!!!!! It developed into a very heavy menstrual period and after 2 weeks and no signs of stopping.. I was getting weak..but MY pride kept me from going to the hospital...

OK, this is for me and anyone else that might be stubborn.. If you are having to change pads every hour on the hour.. GO TO THE HOSPITAL!!!! PLEASE!!...

When I had almost reached the 3rd week of this issue, I was physically weak.. I came close to passing out 3 times. When my dear husband (after much concern and FUSSING) took me to the hospital, I had to be admitted. I had lost 1/3 the volume of blood, talk about being anemic!! But I found out I had a fibroid tumors that were causing the bleeding..the doctor put me on Prometrium, hormone pill... and I haven't take to well to it.. started with bad headache.. for 2 days. Then, I called the pharmacy to see what I could take for a headache. He said since the bleeding had stopped it might be possible to stop taking the pill.. and then said the headache could be cause from High Blood Pressure which the hormone may cause, but after checking my blood pressure it was normal so I stopped taking the pill for 1 day and the bleeding started right back..I of course took the pill very quickly! Thankfully, the headache went away but when I took the pill during the day it did cause the drowsiness, in fact, even taking it at night I feel almost drugged, very light headed.. and MOOD SWINGS!! I have cried like a baby for almost no reason..I have spent most of this month in the bed.. either from Dr orders to take it easy, to being to weak to sit up or even walk around the house..

NOW, the good part..well, if you read the last post this will make so much sense to you. When I talked to the Dr about the fibroid and what my choices were, I told him that my husband and I had hoped to have a baby.. He explained that after removing the fibroids, there is a greater chance of us having a baby.. well more than I have now or would have.. of course, there is a lot more details that isn't in this post..  but I must tell you.. during my morning walks and talks with the Lord, I am always praying about a baby.. in fact, when I pray I feel like the widow in Luke

Luk 18:1-8 ~"Jesus told his disciples a parable about their need to pray all the time and never give up. He said, "In a city there was a judge who didn't fear God or respect people. In that city there was also a widow who kept coming to him and saying, 'Grant me justice against my adversary.' For a while the judge refused. But later he told himself, 'I don't fear God or respect people, yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will grant her justice. Otherwise, she will keep coming and wear me out.'" Then the Lord added, "Listen to what the unrighteous judge says. Won't God grant his chosen people justice when they cry out to him day and night? Is he slow to help them? I tell you, he will give them justice quickly. But when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on earth?"

Well, I don't know what is going to happen.. I just keep praying.. I pray the Lord will get me though this, I pray he will heal my body and give me the strength, mental and physical strength ! I also pray that he will give my husband and Daughter strength!! to deal with me and my loopy crying spells.. There is a possiblilty that I may have to have a hysterectomy, I have thought about this and well, as I had previously posted.. God is our Father, he knows what is best for us and I will continue to praise him regardless of what might happen this week! I will praise him and love him in all life's storms..

Thanks for reading and I hope you have a blessed day..

Good Morning..

The past few days have been, well, simply put ...amazing..

Amazing for me anyway... I posted last about the conversation with God, then I got my book about fasting and started reading it... a few light bulbs came on... and this morning Shannen Fields  posted on FB  Encouragement for Today A Ram is on the way...

"So Abraham called that place The LORD Will Provide. And to this day it is said, 'On the mountain of the LORD it will be provided.'" Genesis 22:14 (NIV).

Some people may think that the past few days, all the little things are just coincidence.. but, I look at is as encouragement! Encouragement, that I am on the right path. Encouragement that I need to step it up a pace.. and that the Ram is on its way.. I may be at the bottom of this mountain I need to climb.. but on the other side as the writer of the article says..

Unbeknownst to Abraham, something else was walking up that mountain. Quietly. Out of sight. On the other side of the mountain. Something else was putting one foot in front of the other. Only Abraham couldn't see it.

This morning during my walk, the conversation with God was quite on my part... I enjoyed the view that he created, the mountains, clouds and sunrise..and then thanked God for everything I could think of.. Praised him!

And I thought about this blog.. A New Journey... I hope that one day it will be an encouragement to someone else facing all the uncertainty's that I am facing now.. Going from in literal terms.. unemployed and homeless..to.. who knows what is next. Now, for homeless, I am not living in a box or under a bridge, thanks to the generosity of my cousin, my family and I have a roof over our head, just not our own home. My husband found a job he loves out here, my daughter will be starting college, and well, I havent found my place yet! I have moments where I miss Home... my work, my family and friends in Alabama... I miss the GREEN of Alabama.. don't miss the humidity so much, but who would!

But, I think we all have our pity parties from time to time.. the good thing is we have the ability to be able to pull ourselves up by our bootstraps, and smile when we really don't want to.. and keep praying!! Remembering that God is with us in the bottom of the crevice, that is in the bottom of the abyss, that is the deepest part of the valley that we are going through in our lives.. and listen for God, get excited and encouraged from something as simple as a kind word from a stranger and then pass it on.. Smile and say a kind word to someone you think needs it!

Heb 13:2  Do not neglect to show hospitality to strangers, for thereby some have entertained angels unawares.

The smallest of things can excite me.. Hummingbird looking at me though the window, the tiniest of flowers blooming in the cracks of sidewalks.. seeing a sliver of a rainbow in the clouds on a sunny day.. things most people probably never notice! BUT maybe the world needs someone like me to see the small things and to appreciate them enough to share them with those who cant see them!

The thing is, to me those small insignificant things, are like post-it notes from God! Notes saying, I am here! Good job! I am proud of you! I love you!
As silly as this may sound to you.. the other day I found something that I have only thought of..something that I thought I would never have..but it because available in a way totally unexpected.. My thought was ..being totally honest..  God is the only one that knew of that desire and he provided.... HE LOVES ME!! He cared about the smallest detail in my life and he blessed me!!
I hope in some small way I can be encouragement to someone in person or maybe through this blog, because someone else's blog encouraged me today. They got up and wrote something that I, so needed to read.. and it was just a small piece of a puzzle that is coming together in my life...


Have a blessed day.. may God shine on you!!

Rainbow over mountain

I have seen more rainbows this month that in years in Alabama, because it rains up in the mountains but not down here in the desert part.. so as the sun is setting it makes rainbows :D very pretty ..